It has come to my attention that someone on this site who I cannot name publicly is telling many of you that I am fake or whatever else. I reported him a few months ago because this is akin to harrassment and his account was suspended for a while. Now he is back. I lost interest in him after a long time of "yes no maybe so" for a meetup and he has been going out of his way to keep others from meeting me. I decided to blog this to make the site aware of this behaviour. You may hate me for whatever reason and many of you do, but I do not harrass any of you, nor tell people NOT to meet you. I let you all be.
So if you guys want to believe what this person is saying about mew that is your perogative, but LET ME BE. I have just as much right being here and am just as deserving of finding a hot guy as any of you, and certainly more deserving than many of the genuinely fake profiles on here.
Man, I tell ya, the bs never stops. I am a decent fellow looking for a decent good looking fellow and yet for some reason, they just don't exist. I recently put up a very concise personal ad with awesome photos of myself on another site, and left it there for a few weeks. What do I get hitting me up? FAKE PROFILES. Guys sending me pics of 14 yr old boys? really? Blurry photos of dudes hiding their face behind a camera (pics that are probably stolen anyway). What is it with people doing that? Does just looking at me or my profile scream " I want to be treated like shit and toyed with?" or "I am fake so please only fake people hit me up"?
Enough is enough people. You want to meet me, read my profile. Read the 7 sentences of what I am looking for. If you are offended because I call you out on your BS, or how fake you seem, then DONT BE FAKE. I am not into older men and definitely not those who are out of shape. If THAT offends you, look and follow someone else. I am not being mean. I am being HONEST. Plus, if I flat out tell you what I am looking for in my profile, why would you still email me wanting to meet or have erotic fun with me?
Anyway, I know a lot of you tell me all I do is blog negative things. Well, maybe if something POSITIVE came my way, I wouldn't. Maybe if people would stop looking at my REAL profiles, the ones with pics of me, my wrestling, my smiles, my athletecism, my body, or even pics of me with family in some places like instagram, and thinking I am fake, or need to be put down for some messed up personal reason of yours, I could move past the negativity. I WANT a bf. I WANT love. I WANT a family. I WANT a simple, happy life with someone who wrestles. It isn't THAT farfetched or SPECIFIC. Many of you want the same thing even though you say you don't or tell me this isn't a site for that. WHAT SITE IS? THEY ARE ALL THE SAME, I know, I have been on MANY. Heck I see on grindr people looking only for WHITE, or only for transgender females with foot fetishes....AND I AM PICKY? let's get serious. People's animosity towards me stems from their own lack of self awareness. They see someone who knows who he is, what he wants, and isn't perfect, and they want to prove a point. What point, god only knows.
But here is MY point. Stop the BS. I am a GOOD person. I will write this a billion times over. I know I am good. I have given of myself to hundreds of kids, adults, gays, heteros, you name it. The gay wrestling clubs out there, I am sure I inspired quite a few people to make themselves better with wrestling just by showing them you CAN be gay AND WRESTLE. I always helped out even though I didn't have to. Travelled with little to no money across the country and didn't complain when they jipped me wrestling matches. Nope, I did a lot for them and I know I have. I don't need the thanks but I do not need the hate either. And sure there will be those who will probably write "the only people who say they are good, are clearly bad" among other things. NO, I am NOT perfect, but I am not the devil that I am made out to be. So stop treating me like one.
Why do so many of you hate me? Have i done something so evil that I get 0 emails now? I like erotic wrestling, i like singlets, i like chokes. Yet I cannot even see hot videos posted on here because the guys posting them block me now. It is sad really. I spent a long time learning the sport on my own. I spent a long time becoming a legit athlete and all so i could find an attractive young looking guy like myself to share my kinks and my my life with. I never asked for much. I dont want money or fame. Just 1 or 2 friends and love.
But i am blocked at every corner. Guys just spread their hatred of me. They tell people lies about me and yet the reality is, i have never cheated on anyone, robbed anyone, or treated anyone like filth (guys here who you idolize have done it to me and you excuse it).
I dunno why the hate is so rampant towards me and not just on this site. But we all deserve a chance at love and to enjoy fun times with guys we are into. Why then do so many of you (especially older men) prevent me from enjoying the things you do? This is bullying to an extreme degree. Ostracizing someone none of you really know. And you wont even read this blog. Those who do will inevitably call me a drama queen or some other pejorative term.
But what else can i do? Im isolated and alone and i have done nothing to deserve the amount of vituperation i receive. Im not angel but the punishment does not fit the crime. My real life actions speak volumes. I help so many people young and old....but my reputation has been made to look as foul as hitler's. I might as well BE him.
So someone answer me: is this right? because if i do truly deserve it, and your explanation proves this to be so, I will be happy to delete my profile and disappear for good.
I don't know guys. I just spent 2 weeks in chicago, 1 week in connecticut, and a day in philadelphia. I gave fair warning by using the calendar function of this site and no one i would be interested in met me or contacted me. Am I that ugly and unpopular here? Has bgeast and ucw wrestling really blacklisted me because I speak my mind and am not a twink drone? I mean seriously, if it wasnt because I actually compete and train, my travels would have been a waste of time and money but thankfully I made more "bonds" with str8 people and wrestlers than i have done so here.
Many of you young hot dudes, particularly in the US, are just impossible. You prefer payment, being in videos for old men, and popularity than actually meeting guys who are well worth your time. Guys who could teach you wrestling, treat you right without the need to get you to sign contracts to work for them. Yeah, i get that I am not famous. I also get that I am hugely unpopular with the puppet masters of these sites, so they tend to tell you to stay away from me and that is sad really.
To you older men and guys who downright loathe me without even knowing me personally i say this. WE ALL DESERVE a CHANCE. A chance to fufill our fantasies or meet guys like us, make friends and find dates. Keeping someone from that is disgusting and speaks volumes about your own ammoral and petty personalities. You are all so self centered , hateful, spiteful and so involved in your cliques, that in the end, awesome sites like these just becomes an endless gaggle of vapid gay guys who dont even really know how to wrestle but want to constantly recruit instead of befriend.
A whole summer and only emails i got were motifications about new photos and few replies. Emails came from guys in europe who i am sad to say i just cannot afford to travel to. Older pit of shape men, i apologize too but you aren't what i want. Plain and simple and you have to stop reprimanding me or being rude to me or telling me what i should or shouldnt settle for. I know we arent young and cute forever, but it is funny that right now, i am still 1 of a very very small handful of guys who wrestles and competes and instead of being able to find guys to relate to, i am stuck writing blogs full of frustration. I dont know if you will all be happy when i am gone, or get hurt so badly i cant compete anymore, or whether you will praise the day when im too old and physically incapable of wrestling but this summer has certaibly shown me, just how little my efforts for bonding with gay guys has paid off.
Just thought I'd share how lucky I am to have found my own way in this sport without the use of apps or websites. While it is impossible to meet any sort of cute guy for dating or wrestling or even spandex fun, it only took me a few years of competing on my own and showing area coaches that even as a no name adult, i had something to offer in the practice room.
From California to NY, I have gotten to know some incredible and accepting coaches that have seen my potential as an athlete at gyms I could train and improve my skills in. Unlike BJJ and mma which has become popular in these gay circles and are easy to join as an adult and even as a gay male without issue, wrestling is a tough sell. Unless you are willing to commit and do what is necessary to show you have the desire and work ethic.
I may be a monster to many of you, and I am sure one major reason much of my time has been wasted on here is because of what people who dont know me tell you. I myself have not been the nicest of people but have tried to be honest with who i want and what i look for. I am an enemy to bgeast and ucw wrestling because they couldnt have me, or in some cases, didnt want me because I dont take orders. I dont wrestle in speedos and many times wouldnt accept wrestling the less attractive and older members of their video club.
Nevertheless, while many of you have a foul view of me, it never stopped me from competing or training or fighting many stigmas, including fighting the hurt and psychological pain that false accusations of child molestation will do to a person. No, sorry, i am gay, not a pedophile, and I have plenty of proof to how amazing I am as both a training partner and mentor to many wrestlers of all ages. The awful things that have been said by and the catty attitudes many of the gay wrestling clubs around the US have towards me are unwarranted, considering I would bring my knowledge and experience to all the little tournaments they had without asking for payment or recognition. Goes to show how ungrateful and petty the gay community is.
But in the end, here i am, doing another wrestling camp, 3 wrestling sessions a day 5 days a week to become a better athlete and better person (2 weeks this time around). The wrestlers adore me, the coaches accept me for all that I am, and I now bring quality tumbling to those who train there. I am the unofficial official body control advisor (tumbling coach). I am being trained by some of the best in the world and happy that, while so many here dream and fantasize about or worry about being old or out of shape or too gay to compete and train in this sport, I am still doing it. I am as real as they come, the dream gay wrestler so many here say they want, that just happens not to be the cute 18 yr old white looking american clone everyone really wants.
I may not be worth your time or money or trip to my city (cant give you access to hot men, cant give you free things like those bgeast sites out there, or pay for everything for your hotness) , but i am certainly worth a lot more than many of you are giving me credit for and that is your loss. I will be back to my 6 am to 8pm wrestling day while most will still be here "looking to meet" for "competitive matches."
To those who are genuine: keep focusing on your goals and dont let your age or shape or sexuality keep you from gyms and coaches. Take the step towards doing tournaments and see just how much fun you can really have.