Sometimes there's too much going on to enjoy the moment. I like a relaxed setting. It's agitating watching people race around accomplishing absolutely nothing. I'm not much of a dreamer. I'm a realist. Though, what some say isn't realistic, I tend to make happen. Just who I am by nature, making the impossible, possible. I just refuse to accept the word NO when I comes to something I really desire to have.
Decided to get a new car. Brand new. Great warranty package and coverage. Very happy with the financial aspect of it. Now I can worry less about car repairs and/or breakdowns, and focus on going places. Now instead of costly travel expenses, I can simply drive for meet ups. Though, I don't really like long distance driving, but at least, now, have I the means to. New found perspective on relocating and moving, to what I view as a better place for ME to live.
I remember a time when life was simple. It wasn't hard to meet nice, decent people. I knew exactly where I stood with people I called friend. Now everything has gotten to be like smoke and mirrors. Very few people say what they mean. Everything is a big guessing game now. I don't play games with people's emotions. That's a very dangerous game and one I'd think people would know better than to play anymore. Yet, it still exists. I've always been open minded to change, to others opinions and to self-growth. However, I think I'm going back to my roots. Back to where I started. Independence isn't so bad once one accepts the solitude that comes with it. Depending on others has left me with some very fond memories. However, there are a few, that have turned me away from the concept. The simple truth is that very few people in this world are truly honest. Without honesty, I can't trust, I can't believe, I can't go forward. I'm not interested in regression. Stagnant circumstances are not what I'm looking for. I'm looking for a path moving away from hate, anger, dishonesty, deceit, manipulation, mind games and degradation. Looks like I'll be on my way, on my own, strong, secure and protected from predatory minds.
Communicating and meeting up with one another should involve a mutual effort on both sides. If I'm expected to do all the traveling and the others involved barely message or text me, then, it's likely we won't be meeting up again. I'm beneath no one on this earth and I refuse to allow those who think so to treat me as such. If someone wants to meet up with me, they should be willing to travel as well. Also, I have a life just like everyone else, to expect me to stop everything and drive hours to meet up is disrespectful. It's extremely unrealistic for someone to expect a relationship with me after only one meet. It never ceases to amaze me how those who put forth absolutely no effort and have zero respect for others expect such grand treatment from those same individuals and have no remorse in verbally abusing them for not doing what they want. Is this what the world has come to? Is this what we're calling humanity now? How could someone I enjoyed meeting turn out to be such an ugly and hateful person all of a sudden? These are the very reasons that I hit the block button so often, not just here, but emotionally as well. I just don't understand it, I don't really want to. There are too many people in this world who have no reason to be respectful, humane and good people, yet they are. So, it stands to reason that those more fortunate should definitely be doing the same.
Almost have my car paid off. But the check engine light has been on for 8 months and it sounds like a Harley. Only about 5 payments left, Lol, Damn. Figures, lol.