I’ve been on and off this website a fair few times and that is the joy of having a difficult health condition which has taken up a lot of my time. However with a clean bill of health and a desire to get back in the ring I’m hoping 2018 is the year!
I do suffer with anxiety at times and this can cloud my judgement. I worry that I offend people, that I make the wrong choices or say the wrong things or that I have somehow annoyed them. Most of the time this isn’t the case, I’m told, and I just need to relax.
About ten years ago I met someone online and he was charming, kind and good to look at. Exchanges were had and we agreed to meet. When we did see each other in London he was every bit as charming in person as he was online. He asked if I wanted to go back to his and despite my gut feeling I agreed.
My anxieties eventually took over, and this was when we had walked about a mile and London has turned from the tourist expected west end to something out of Harry Brown or a Stanley Kubrick dystopia. I made some excuse and said I had to go. It didn’t end well. I ended up with an injury, a dent to my confidence and a lifetime anxiety.
So I ask please be patient with me and if I ask something over and over I may just be nervous or just really keen. Or both.